When music is the only thing that keeps you going

I'm actually rather embarrassed to be in a state like that.

Ever had one of those weeks where every song seems to related to your life in some way or another.

"Joni Mitchell you understand me so well..." blah, blah, blah.

I found out, I was in one of those places when I most definitely tried to convince myself that an Imogen Heap song explained my life perfectly.

Don't get me wrong Imogen, I do admire your stuff but the only truth in your song was "Things are not always as they seem."

A common theme. welcome to the story of my life; but that is another rant that has another time, and another place.

Maybe after a bottle of wine, you could get it out of me.

Either way my words would be jumbled even without the inebriated slip.

As for today, I'm just kind of feeling nothing but a lot at the same time.

I used to call myself a walking oxymoron. 

(mainly because I can never agree on the feeling that I'm experiencing)

It still tends to be true.

Once again, back to the music rant. I mentioned embarrassed because lately I have been so affected by music. That isn't the bad thing.  I love musical instruments, I love composition, the lyrics. But most of all, I have an intrigue with the emotion that people create with music. It's unnerving to me, but lovely at the same time.

Music is great, but not when that is the only way that God can get a person to listen. "Hey, Do I have your attention now-- I want you to be present with me."

Would you create in me a clean heart, oh God?

Restore in me the joy of your salvation

Would you create in me a clean heart, oh God?

Restore in me the joy of my salvation

- Jon Foreman,  White as Snow

 Music is a God send, even the angels sing. But sometimes slowing the mind down just long enough to listen in silence is where we need to be.

As I look up, I pray that I only see you as the creator of the moon and stars. Your hands are in everything and your words are true. I fall into your stillness and pray that I find the essence of your peace. 

>>> "When I consider your heavens,
   the work of your fingers,
the moon and the stars,
   which you have set in place,
 what is mankind that you are mindful of them,
   human beings that you care for them?^"

 ^{Psalm 8}  <<<