living in music

close your eyes, stay here for a little while and let your heart skip a few beats. 

Every so often, there is a perfectly placed song that seems to just grab you. This one, was in the new Twilight movie, Breaking Dawn pt 1. It is a beautiful song and it's from a band that deserves some recognition, Sleeping at last.

I listen to it and I just want to live in the lyrics. It's gorgeous.

///// I've waited a hundred years. but i'd wait a million more for you. nothing prepared me for what the privilege of being yours would do.

If i had only felt the warmth within your touch, if i had only seen how you smile when you blush, or how you curl your lip when you concentrate enough, i would have known what I was living for all along. what i've been living for.

your love is my turning page, where only the sweetest words remain. every kiss is a cursive line, every touch is a redefining phrase. 

I surrender who i've been for who you are, for nothing makes me stronger than your fragile heart. if i had only felt how it feels to be yours, well, i would have known what I've been living for all along. what i've been living for.

Though we're tethered to the story we must tell, when i saw you, well, i knew we'd tell it well. with a whisper, we will tame the vicious seas. like a feather bringing kingdoms to their knees./////

enjoy. 

Stupid you say

Impulsive really.

Thursday night around 8:30 pm I was watching Eclipse with some lovely ladies from my life group. And I started receiving phone calls with the notion as to what they pertained to.  I get the day off from work. I decided to drive to Portland.

I gave it a 20 minute run through.

the decided to take the plunge.


As I sit in a Mcdonalds charging my dead phone. I sit and think. Moments like this won't always happen.

I get to spend the weekend with great friends and family. Even a friend I have no seen in years. We just so happen to be in portland the exact same weekend.

I cannot wait to take a power nap. I tried to at a flying j parking lot this morning right before sunrise. But the fear of someone killing me kept crossing my mind.


I'm on a much needed adventure.

and a much needed refill of Jesus.

Bring on the nature, bring on the solitude-- bring on relationship.

Updates soon.


List of possibilities this weekend.

Hiking
Kayaking
Wine
St Helens to visit Rachel and Dustin
Uncle Wilton and Aunt Nancy
The lovely Marks family
Powell's bookstore
Andy Christensen
Heath Black
and a possibility of driving to Washington to meet Jon Chittim's baby and family.

I can hardly contain this excitement.

Fingers crossed my phone is charged enough.


all my love.


I shall see you all upon my return.

"I've got a pocket full of pills"

And only inappropriate lyrics come to my mind.

and Google believes the same thing. try it.

So false energy coated by adrenaline.

Saturday I started to do a ten day detox, today is day five.
I quit.

As much as I feel that food controls my life, maybe it doesn't. I was perfectly content not eating. The problem, my detox concoction repulsed me, so instead, I thought lack of nutrients would be better. I settled on Orange Juice. I spent two nights starting at 9pm laying in bed until 10 am. I felt like a brick was falling on my head, over and over and over. Caffeine withdrawals suck. But after that my energy started increasing and I couldn't sleep because I was so hyped up. Until, we are at day five.
And I quit.

I am now not tired and sick. I've got chills and they keep on coming. Man I'd wish they'd stop. That's when I decided that medications were a necessity. I was rustling through my medicine drawer and found all these random medicines that might some day come in handy. But I could not find anything that would knock me out and make me feel better. Until, I found a bag full of pills. A plethora of pills ranging from sizes and colors and smells and shapes. Realizing I have no idea what half of these are from and when I thought it would be a good idea to mix them together. I must have been on drugs when I did this. But in my bag of pills there were two blue pills. These weren't any two pills, these two were actually labeled. Praise the Lord. Tylenol PM. you were smart a label with your name was placed on the pill. Thank you Tylenol geniuses.

Now that I've finished all four of the twilight saga's, about to finish disc 3 of season 6 Gilmore
Girls, I not rest assured that I will fall asleep very shortly. I also pray that I will no longer dream of vampires.