a rather short summary of life.

Lately, I've been encountering nightmares. When I was younger, I used to pray every night that God let me encounter good dreams. I used to wake up every night terrified. So for many years after, I did not encounter nightmares.

The past two months, I've experienced a nightmare at least twice a week. Specifically a couple weeks ago, I had went to bed semi-early because I was so exhausted. I woke up in the middle of the night from a nightmare thinking it was morning, but my room was still pitch black. That was at about three a.m.. I woke up again when my alarm had gone off at about eight still experiencing the same dream. I woke up even more exhausted than when I had went to sleep.

With this being said, a common theme to all my nightmares is being chased. I am always being chased. And I am constantly fighting to think outside the box to outsmart who/what is chasing me. I started praying again for relieve of nightmares, and in fact, my good friend Des has as well. Months before this moment, she taped an index card beside my bed.

Psalm 3: 5

I lie down and sleep;
I wake again, because the LORD sustains me.

I am rather curious if there is supposed to be some meaning behind the chase.


Part II. The Crazies
A small portion of my family came to California the other weekend. (Andrea, Wilton, and Jay)
It was good to see them, wish there were better circumstances. I also wish my mom could have made it before my aunt passed. She came this weekend though and we had a good time.
God has blessed me so incredibly much, my aunt's friend Sue is going to be giving my my Tommilou's camera and I'm so excited. I get to take it to Africa and take beautiful photographs. I am also recruited to take pictures for my Aunt's celebration of Life Party on March 15. It'll be interesting to be able to take photographs for an un-biased group. Seeing as how i will know a total of one person at the Party. I always take photo's that I am fully connected to in one way or another. If that makes any sense. I am also recieving the most beautiful dresser once we get our house in a couple of months.

Part III.

I am the definition of rollercoaster. Life is out of my control right now, as it should be. But, I feel like there is no method to this madness in a not so good way. I'm already behind before I even got started and I can't seem to catch up. Junk just keeps piling up and it continuing until the next year. I feel like a lot of my life is just piled up with junk. Bah.

more to come.