reveal and retain

Saturday night debrief will go down in history as probably one of the longest debriefs ever in ASB. Or so I've gathered.

Six hours of hearing peoples hearts. My heart breaks for my friends. My heart breaks for those hurting. Like I said,

"I can handle my shit. But I don't want my friends to be hurting." I will fight for them. Hearts are so fragile.

Being able to understand through someone eyes nourishes what I ask God on a regular basis. Help me to see as others see, anything any everything.

Since about 9pm I spent a few hours reading A Generous Orthodoxy (I will be up for a few more hours until I've read at least 100 more pages), I then spent a few hours in contemplation and reflections. I started journaling, but not in my normal journal. I actually haven't used this one since September. But I started journaling about the present and how I find myself living in future without paying attention to my present. I'm never where I need to be. But as I took this time of silence and stillness and as i wrote in my journal I decided to read where I started. Where I started was in the exact place I am now. I started this journal in August in silence with a deisre to learn the peace of the father. Here I am, 8 months later, journaling about the exact same idea.

Through this, I'm looking for better ways to retain I've learned.

Off Subject.

Dear Kelly Mount, I adore you and I admire the way God has shaped you. You are authentic and I'm blessed to be able to share life with you and be able to call you a friend. I love you.